I don’t think I’ll ever truly put aside the pain I feel at you not being here, Mum. I don’t think there will ever come a day when I’m not wishing I could phone you. It’s been almost 14 years and I can’t shake that desire. But this year’s post is something different, because you’ve brought someone into my life who is helping me reach for the stars. Actually a handful of people. In the past 12 months my life has changed, and I know you had a hand in that. Only a mother would guide her child to the people that would help that child grow in so many ways.
You’ve brought friends, mentors, an angel, and hope back into my life in the past year, and even if you were here, I wouldn’t know how to thank you. I’ve found my life taking some unexpected turns since your last birthday, when I sat and asked you ever so silently if you would help steer me to where I need to be. I’m not pretending that it’s all been a picnic, because it hasn’t. But I can look at the past year and see the changes that have occurred. I’m so very grateful for each and every one of them. I’m still struggling with certain things but, I have faith and hope that it will get better. And part of that is due to the people who have entered my life. One in particular whom I know you sent my way. At just the right time, as always.
Thank you, Mum, for watching out for me, even now. You are and always have been my rock. And even as I mourn your life ended too soon, I will celebrate the love you nurtured within me that is finding its way to the surface once again. As I play one of your favourite songs, sung by one of your favourite artists, I know that the words reaching my ears are right.
We’ll meet again, don’t know where, don’t know when, but I know we’ll meet again, some sunny day.